I seem to be having a tiny wobble tonight. Not a big kill-me-now-for-I-cannot-take - it-anymore-you-cocksucking-son-of-a-gun wobble. No. Just a tiny I-am-an-idiot, who-am-I-trying-to-kid wobble. Maybe it's a Christmas thing? It's not S.A.D. No. For in the ghastly past I wanted to die in the summertime too. So it must be a tiny wobble. It'll pass. It'll pass. I shall just write it down and save it in the file named: LOST, and never post it.
Many moons ago, I decided to stop writing about my insignificant life in minute detail, preferring instead to write about five pound notes and Possibility girls - knowing that you are quite clever enough to read between the lines and work it out for yourself. But I do still write everything down. My hopes. My fears. And all the bits in between. And then I save them in a file named: LOST. It helps. You should try it.
Between the lines is where you'll find me
Today I saw a fox. A magnificent fox.
I smiled at it and thought of people I know.
The fox paused for a moment, smiled back at me, and then scurried away.
Amazing things happen everyday - if you look for the things you cannot see.
Who can truly know the reasons for tonight's LOST moment? All I do know is that even when you wobble, you do so with an eloquence and a truth that leaves other's words in your wake.
I've seen that fox too, oftentimes.
It's an honour and a privilege to know you and to read your words.
And somewhat annoyingly, there doesn't seem to be anything remotely flippant about this comment. I promise to rectify this oversight just as soon as I can. Too much sincerity is bad for one's health.
Posted by: An Unreliable Witness | December 20, 2006 at 06:36 PM
I have know idea why I'm wobbling either?
Tis just an insignificant blip. Nothing more.
I just thank the Gods for sending me foxes.
Posted by: andre | December 20, 2006 at 06:44 PM
It's a December things. Wobbles are flying about and landing willy nilly at this time of year.
Chocolate, drink and a good book or cheesy TV.
Posted by: just a girl | December 20, 2006 at 07:19 PM
You are not an idiot. And that's all I have to say on the matter.
Actually it isn't, I just thought of something silly. Wobble, but don't fall down. Weebles did it all the time and people loved them too.
Posted by: Fussy Bitch | December 20, 2006 at 08:15 PM
some of us are wobbling with you... it'll steady up soon enough andre...hang in there. thinking good thoughts for you
Posted by: laurel | December 20, 2006 at 09:29 PM
Hi Sweetie,
Sorry it's been so long since I've commented. I've been having my own wobbles as well. I wish I was as eloquent through mine as you are. Mostly I just sit on my blog and call people "fuckwits." It strangely makes me feel better, but doesn't do much for my social life.
Hang in there. 2007 is almost here. It may be a better year. It may not. But it will be a DIFFERENT year, and I'm ready for that.
All my love,
Lori
Posted by: lori | December 21, 2006 at 01:33 AM
"Amazing things happen everyday - if you look for the things you cannot see."
This sentence speaks VOLUMES to those who have been there and back.
Blimey, I think I'm welling up..
Posted by: Gordon | December 21, 2006 at 02:53 AM
Damn the wobbles.
But the straights are quite boring and the wobbles make us human-people.
And you inspire this human-person every day.
So there.
Posted by: Tickle | December 21, 2006 at 03:24 AM
I was going to say that I think I am having a sympathy wobble, but now I see that it's not just me I'll just say that I'm glad you keep writing throughout.
Posted by: Angelina | December 21, 2006 at 03:32 AM
Before your blog I wouldn't have thought that between the lines could be so crowded?
I sometimes worry that wobbles aren't as big as they used to be.
Like Wagon-Wheels.
Posted by: Caroline the Insignificant | December 21, 2006 at 03:39 AM
Sometimes, standing with your legs apart can help. It makes you feel more vulnerable at first, but then it is more stable position from which to withstand the wobble without falling over.
May this wobble be as brief as possible.
Posted by: The Goldfish | December 21, 2006 at 05:16 AM
I wobble a lot too, Andre. And I know many people who do, and it makes me love them more. This wobbling, it's a shaky feeling inside, not too sure of myself. I have handwritten books where I hide...things.
I know my wobbly thoughts aren't worth much but...I most certainly don't think you're an idiot.
I've never seen a fox but I've seen many two-legged snakes.
Posted by: guyana-gyal | December 21, 2006 at 05:31 AM
It's just a tiny wobble [I am idiot etc].
The Goldfish: I am not pregnant!
Caroline the insignificant: tis crowded between the lines
Angelina: tis just a tiny blip. Shall be back to my drama-queen ways by this evening.
Miss Tickle: The straights are V. boring. xxx
Gordon: You are a very nice man
Lori: Sorry to hear you have the wobbles too. Shouting fuckwit seems like the perfect plan to me. xxx
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 05:34 AM
Guyana Gyal: beware the two-legged snakes!
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 05:36 AM
What does eloquence and eloquent mean?
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 05:36 AM
Yes, I been wobbling also. Definitely Xmas. Getting better now though, I think.
Bloggers wobble but they don't fall down!
I still have 2 weebles. But on of them keeps falling in half. I'm not sure if this counts as falling down though - more like falling sideways.
Andre, you are a lovely and multiwotsited man.
Posted by: Clare | December 21, 2006 at 05:38 AM
"But on of them"
Spot the missing E. Well, it's a bit unspottable, seeing as it's not there. So just, um, not-spot it. That's it.
Posted by: Clare | December 21, 2006 at 05:40 AM
Hiya!
Can't think of anything else.
Posted by: Peter | December 21, 2006 at 06:14 AM
oh Peter you do make me laugh
x
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 06:15 AM
'Bloggers wobble but they don't fall down'
ha!
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 06:39 AM
Did you fall?
Posted by: Tickle | December 21, 2006 at 06:57 AM
I've thought of something interesting.
What's it like being forty, now that you've had a bit of time to get used to it?
(You can blog this instead if you want.) I'm sure your readers want to know. Well, the younger ones.
Posted by: Peter | December 21, 2006 at 07:34 AM
I've been having a wobble for 10 years, does it ever stop ?
Posted by: JJ | December 21, 2006 at 08:29 AM
Peter: being 40 is great! I love it.
I would not swap a single day of it for any previous year.
Posted by: andre | December 21, 2006 at 09:30 AM
An occasional wobble is perfectly normal, imagine how parched and drab this green and very pretty country would be without a bit of rain now and then. Your self doubt is unfounded though, your true character glows through your posts and comments, you're no idiot and we all think you're quite a nice guy really, eloquent, funny and clever.
All these disparate people here clearly think so, each in their own way sending you an 'interweb hug'(in a manly 'slap-on-the-back' kind of way for us guys, obviously)we all could do with a hug sometimes, I hope, no, I'm sure it helps but it's clear from your remarks that your strength of spirit has grown and you feel confident in your ability to ride out the storm.
I'm so very glad to see that.
Bugger! I wanted to be flippant too
Posted by: Robin B | December 21, 2006 at 12:11 PM