Every breath you take.

I can sense him sitting there, in the corner of the room, smoking his Havana cigar, vigorously noting my every move in his moleskin pad. The way I smile. The way I almost allow the opinions that fill my head to scatter across a room full of strangers. The way I flirt, curtsey; humbly bow to anyone that looks me straight in the eye. The way my shyness covers the fear of contributing to the debate. The way he shakes his head as my confidence builds. The way he checks his watch the moment my heart begins to fall. The way he knows my deepest secrets - if I don't play your game - you can't beat me. If I don't raise my hand - you can't reject me. If I don't stand up - you won’t notice me. If I tell you I'm stupid - you'll never see how smart I sometimes think I am. He's always watching. Always. I hope he isn't watching me tomorrow ...

Comments

[andy]

better remember to bring my moleskin pad ;o)

[Erik]

Just wanted to wish everybody a good time at the blogmeet tomorrow!

[andre]

I FEEL SICK

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[Vaughan]

He won't be watching. And if he is, I'll invite him outside and deck 'im.

(Correction: I'll get someone stronger and with a better punch to invite him outside and deck 'im on my behalf, obviously)

[andre]

I should have invited Kendo Nagasaki to the secret ball ... oh and incase you were wondering ... I STILL FEEL SICK.

[andre]

it's 11.45 ... I can't sleep ... I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go

[andre]

it's 11.58 ... I think I have the flu ... Hurrah ... I can't go now ... will have to phone petite [oh yes, I have her 'personal number'am a smooth operator] and explain ... hate phones ... am afraid of them ... am afraid of everything ... am not a smooth operator ... am a big girls blouse ... don't wanna go, don't wanna go, don't wanna go

[theinsider]

You're going to have so much fun Andre. :)

Just smile bashfully and you'll charm the pants off everyone.

[anna (littleredboat anna)]

I assume your having gone quiet to mean that you've stopped worrying, feel much more happy and confident about the whole thing and have gone to bed expectant but excited.

It may not be true, but that's what I'm choosing to assume.

[anna (mind the gap anna)]

you'll be fine. it will be fine. calm the freak down. but, i totally know.

[Darcy]

Hi there Andre,

It's ok. Really, it is. Calm down. Think about the worse thing that can possibly happen. Now realize that it's not going to happen, and that you are going to have a lovely time. Really, it's going to be Ace. I can't wait to hear all about it. Love ya, and have a drink for me.

And Andre....don't forget, you are Ace. ^_^

[mag]

O, I have just realised it is about 10.00 in your part of the world, so meeting is coming closer and closer... Have a drink for me, too. And post all photos as soon as you get over the hangover:)

[andre]

Morning mags - it's 8.20 in my part of the world - I FEEL SICK - help - 'mother'

I don't wanna go, I don't wanna go. I don't wanna go.

See you all there

[Alan]

As he's in your head, you get to see him any way you want. So now he's sitting there with his cigar and his moleskin pad but he's wearing a pretty pink tutu. Now point at him and laugh. Then get on with enjoying yourself.

[billy]

...please go and enjoy it...I have been to a couple of blogmeets and you will find that everyone is actually very nice, very quiet, very polite and very SCARED...carolyn and I sat in a corner (at the first one) for a bit checking to see if anyone was carrying axes :^)...but once we said *hello* it turned into a fantastic evening...the worst people there were cal and I - and as we won't be there it will be loads of fun :^)...

[andre]

are you not coming billy?

okay - am about to leave my house - deep breaths, deep breaths ... err ... might have another cigarette first ... oh god I feel sick.

[Vaughan]

Oh, give it a rest, you old drama queen. :-)

(Not that I'm not feeling exactly the same, of course).

[andy]

Look Andre, I'm on my god knows which coffee and it's only 10am ...See you there! Look even the sun is out!

[Virg]

It's 9.30pm here in Australia that makes it about 12.30pm Saturday (lunch time) there - so you should all be getting together -
Hope it is all going well !
Wonder who's late who's early ???
can't wait to hear all about it !!!

[bren]

Hey Andre - I just took a stroll through your gallery. Damn! You are good!

[theinsider]

Hope you're having fun over there... :)

[andre]

I don't feel very well.

Why did I drink red wine ... why ... why ... why

[andy]

Andre... Twas a good day! Sorry I had to leave early ... That blogmeet was a trial run... The next one, will be better an well be easier.

[clair]

Well, at least you did make it to the station. Don't feel quite so bad for leaving you at baker street.

[vit]

i wanna come to the next one!!!!!!!!

[Vaughan]

I was NOT frightened! I was merely pretending to put you at your ease . . .

Oh, OK, no one's going to believe that, are they?

'Twas lovely, the whole day. And I had my first hangover in about six weeks this morning.

But I am worried about you wandering through Saturday night revellers on your way to Euston, VIDEOING yourself, Andre! Please don't do that again. :-)

[Erik]

Good to hear everbody had a good time!! Kinda wish I would've been there now...

[JonnyB]

I thought the phrase was: "Not as stupid as you make out"...?

[would insert smily face here if I did that sort of thing]

[andre]

hi jonny - you are ace

i have very bad hangover

[anna (littleredboat anna)]

I have given up and gone back to bed.

It was a good day.

[andre]

hi anna - you are ace

i've gone back to bed too

[Darcy]

Hi Mr. Ace Man,

OK, i'm officially jealous. I wish I had a hangover from having too much fun with all of you.....*pouts*

But, hey...i'm glad that you all had a good time ^_^ I think we need more details...as soon as that hangover is better...MORE DETAILS. Thank you.

And Andre, aren't you glad you went? and was all the worrying necessary? Just curious.

[Vaughan]

You're all ace. I've not gone back to bed, but then that's because I'm a masochist.

[andre]

hi vaughan - you are ace too

its 5.27pm and i'm still in bed

[Laura]

I've just been out for hair of the dog. Not one of my wisest decisions.

Lovely to meet you all. Thanks for sorting it out Andre

[Jamesyboy]

Couldn't stay at the meet for long, but nice to meet you there anyway, even if it did just entail saying goodbye at the end!!

[andre]

hi laura - you are ace

am so glad we finally met

[Laura]

Me too
you are ace as well.

in fact it seems we are all ace

[mike]

Andre, you were particularly ace. A pleasure to meet you.

[andre]

Hi mike

thanks - twas a pleasure to meet you too

and ive been a bit worried - I can vaguely remember shouting 'it's all right for you - youre a homosexual' but I can't remember why i shouted it?

so your kind comment has helped immensely.

[Mr Wibble]

It was an ace day. You are all, indeed ace. Ace pub. Ace beer. Ace hangover.

[mike]

Heh! I have no memory of that, but I’m sure it had a sound contextual basis. :-)

Anyway, stuff like that tickles me. It takes a lot more than "you're a homosexual" to make me bristle...!

And for what it’s worth, I came away wincing at a couple of nervous quips of mine which misfired, and worrying about the people I hadn’t met, or spoken to for long (or introduced myself to twice, not remembering we'd already met earlier).

Other than that – a roaring success, I thought. A really lovely way to spend an afternoon.

[JonnyB]

Mike's a homosexual?!?!?

[andre]

Oh God Jonny - have I said TOO much again?

[andre]

I have seen pictures!!!!!!!!

I am not saying where - but they are out there !!!!!!!!

And thank you Mr Wibble - not only did you make an ace site map - but you also listened to my drunken woes with a smile.

[Mr Wibble]

Pictureson my site. Evidence.

[pixeldiva]

I'm really very sorry that I missed it, but I was in bed, sleeping off the 17 miles of lunacy that was the night before.

See you at the next one?

[Greavsie]

Did anyone else get 'Bombardier Bottom'?

[andre]

Hi Greavsie - you are/were ace - my bum was fine.

[The Whole Truth And Nothing But The Truth]

Artie's Hairy Applesack Continually Slapping Against My Fat, Pimply Chin Rules!